Monday, March 16, 2009

On Falling in Love

So it's 2:26 AM and I'm sitting here writing about good ol' Petrarch and his monstrous crush on this girl named Laura... consumption of his heart by love, fear and grief and helplessness, etc etc.
I just opened up my Lit folder to find the prompt sheet for the paper and was faced instead with a list that I made during econ discussion section a few weeks ago (no wonder I'm failing. :P) in response to a question my friend asked me the night before. I'll transcribe it below:

You know that you are in love with someone when...
~ you're lying/sitting around and your mind wanders to thoughts about the other person and you can't help but smile
~ you can just sit in absolute silence with the other person and it just feels right; there's no awkwardness, just understanding and comfort
~ you feel like you would do anything for the other person no matter what
~ you trust the other person with secrets and parts of your past and can tell them these secrets and feel safe about doing so
~ you trust the other person not to purposely hurt you
~ you can just see the person for a few seconds but they instantly make you a little bit happier
~ the other person makes you feel good about yourself, despite insecurities you might have
~ you find yourself wondering how the person is doing even though you just saw them
~ you find yourself thinking about the other person all the time
~ you randomly look up things the other person has mentioned he/she likes so that you can find out more about it and try to talk to the other person about it
~ you smile at the little quirks that the other person has
~ you try hard to spend a lot of time with the other person
~ you feel you can just be yourself- all of yourself- craziness, quirkiness, happiness, depression, can be shown (all the layers of the onion are peeled so to speak) down to when you feel the most vulnerable, and you still feel comfortable with the other person and they know the whole and real you
~ you find yourself wishing that time could just stop so you could spend more hours with the other person
~ you feel comfortable and safe when you're with the other person
~ you can't seem to find words that are sufficient/adequate enough to tell the other person about how much they mean to you and how much you care about them
~ it scares you how much you think about the other person and want to do things to make the other person happy but you can't help yourself.
~ it sucks every time you say goodbye because you just don't want to let go
~ you can talk to the other person for hours and still feel like you can keep going
~ something happens to you (doesn't matter how insignificant it seems) and your instinct is to go tell the other person
~ you start experiencing that Mean Girls "word vomit" phenomenon where you can't seem to stop bringing the other person up in conversations you have with people
~when saying "I love you" doesn't even seem to be enough because ultimately, it's really just three words


With that, it's time to get back to writing my paper.

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